Feeling Scattered

I want to be a minimalist, I really do. So every few weeks or once a month I will try to sit down and define my life purpose.

Sometimes it is hard knowing what my life purpose might possibly be at the age of 22. Other times, it seems simple to define, but hard to achieve.

Invariably, I will end up getting rid of all my stuff. I don’t like to waste, so I donate books, clothing, recycle papers, etc.

And until the next time I do so, things will accumulate again.

I have to go through my entire life and simplify it, sometimes multiple times during the span of a month.

I tend to take on too much responsibility and make too many commitments. The flip side of that is not having any commitments, and relying on myself to keep me motivated and productive.

And I’m not so good at that sometimes.

A lot of the time I feel like I want to do so many things that when it gets right down to it I end up spending most of my time thinking about what I want to do instead of actually going for it.

I’ll have so many simultaneous goals that I don’t entirely accomplish much. It’s as if I am using goals to hide behind meaningful action.

I also begin a lot of things that I do not finish. I am great at making myself feel guilty for not accomplishing things.

Well, now that I’ve got all that out, I guess it is time to look back to simplifying and trying to work my way through these issues. Thanks for reading this mess of my head.