Feeling Scattered

I want to be a minimalist, I really do. So every few weeks or once a month I will try to sit down and define my life purpose.

Sometimes it is hard knowing what my life purpose might possibly be at the age of 22. Other times, it seems simple to define, but hard to achieve.

Invariably, I will end up getting rid of all my stuff. I don’t like to waste, so I donate books, clothing, recycle papers, etc.

And until the next time I do so, things will accumulate again.

I have to go through my entire life and simplify it, sometimes multiple times during the span of a month.

I tend to take on too much responsibility and make too many commitments. The flip side of that is not having any commitments, and relying on myself to keep me motivated and productive.

And I’m not so good at that sometimes.

A lot of the time I feel like I want to do so many things that when it gets right down to it I end up spending most of my time thinking about what I want to do instead of actually going for it.

I’ll have so many simultaneous goals that I don’t entirely accomplish much. It’s as if I am using goals to hide behind meaningful action.

I also begin a lot of things that I do not finish. I am great at making myself feel guilty for not accomplishing things.

Well, now that I’ve got all that out, I guess it is time to look back to simplifying and trying to work my way through these issues. Thanks for reading this mess of my head.

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15 thoughts on “Feeling Scattered

  1. Ach, you’re incredible for pursuing such a challenging lifestyle at such a fresh age. Many of us in our 40’s, 50’s, 60’s and even older are STILL attempting to do what you’re doing now. Please be PATIENT with yourself. Figure out what triggers you to unsimplify and not achieve. That’s really a first step to take. Then figure out what your life purpose may be. Give multiple options, and recognize the purpose will undoubtedly change as your life progresses. Give yourself credit, and take smaller bites with fewer goals so you actually achieve more. You’ll be more at peace and happier with yourself and your life. (btw, I just gave myself some good advice here too!!! LOL!) (Glad you shared this “mess.”)

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    1. Nance, thank you so much for those wise words! I do need to be more patient and let things happen. I listen to what others say sometimes and get down on myself. I have been feeling much better, however, and I’m glad I helped you to give yourself good advice too 🙂

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  2. I am also so impressed that you are doing this at 22. Your self reflection and your actions are profound. The thing I would add to what the others said is a suggestion that you work on not thinking so much! Stay active and aware and let your life unfold! Your purpose will reveal itself.

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    1. Yes! Not thinking, something I really have been and continue to work on. It is a challenge, that’s for sure. Thank you for your very kind comments, I really appreciate it 🙂

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  3. hey Liz Kibby – you’r A.O.K. give yourself more credit, be kinder and gentler with yourself & congratulate yourself for not being mainstream-capitalistisFIRST-consume/byshit/storeshit-type-everyone_madness-humanity-monkey-woman-1%: you are good peoples, Beth……you’r head isn’t a mess either. Damn! it bothers me something awful when you get like this…;)…still a fan, tho..always. also; I have a saying and i will share it with you: ” it’s in my head, it makes sense”. there’s your dimestore-psychology-wisdom_/pickmeup for the year. you owe me 35 dollars. pay me in Euros. just send me an email with some lyrics, or better yet – a voice file with some singing..or wording…or something thru the internets. hope you are well –

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  4. Reblogged this on Starting Write Now and commented:
    I feel like this a lot and especially now. In a new town, with so many new directions to go, I am finding I want to do everything all at once. Direction and purpose for some people are so easily defined, so clear in their minds-I am so envious. It has never been that way for me. Clearly, I am not alone!

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  5. Very inspiring and uplifting! It feels great to see a post like this. I can definitely relate; over the years I’ve become restless and every now and then I sit down and ask myself certain questions. It has definitely helped get me to where I am today. Keep it up, you’re going in the right direction! 🙂

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